So I’m going to England today!!!! The last time I was there I was 14 years old, before that about 11 years old. But this will be the first time I can drink in pubs!
I have long wanted to go back to the Britain but hadn’t gotten the chance because there’s always reasons not to do things. But then something happened – I went to see The Killers at Boston Garden in September 2009 and it changed my life. That may sound silly and dramatic but it’s the absolute truth. It’s what set me on the path to going on this trip that I’ve wanted to take for many years but didn’t.
So what happened? I went into a show to see a band I liked. I left completely, utterly, unwaveringly obsessed. The music, the energy, the band, The Brandon – I mean, Sarah was there and she can vouch: he walked on stage and that was it for me. Nothing has been the same since.
Since then I have spent a ton of money and done all sorts of silly and exciting things in the name of fangirliness but what I’ve gained in return is immeasurable: amazing friends – a year ago I didn’t even know Kathryn, now I am flying over an ocean to spend a week with her. Do you know how long I’ve wanted an English friend to visit and exchange care packages with? Basically MY ENTIRE LIFE. And how I have her.
Adventures: I’ve been to Las Vegas – twice in a year, New York City even more than that, after London I’ve got Philadelphia and Atlantic City on my plate – two places not that far from me that I’ve never been to before. But I will go to these places to see a show, hear the music, be with my friends who know and love and understand what the music means to all of us.
I don’t know how to quantify this last part but I guess to best say it is that this year has given me a new understanding of myself. That when I want something enough – I can get it. If it is important to me – I will do the work to make it happen. I will take off on a months notice, I will navigate my way around cities and places I’ve never been before. Sometimes after one of these excursions my best friend Rachel will say, “I don’t know where you get the energy!” and I think “I don’t either!” but when I need it, it’s there and it takes me to all sorts of incredible places and people that before September 2009, weren’t necessarily on my radar.
Some of what I do may seem crazy – actually, some of it IS – but it makes me happy. It gives me a wonderful life full of such incredible friends and love and surprises and music. It’s getting me on a plane in a few hours to fly solo for the first time to another country and spend an insane week with wonderful new friends.
Find your little heart’s desire – and follow it.